I put on running shorts, a sports bra (crop top) and a t-shirt...I grabbed my I-pod and started out the door...did I mention it was hot? I started to turn around and go back inside, then I thought I could lose the t-shirt...it would help...nay run with the t-shirt...nope too hot...the issue...I don't like to show my tummy. In part it is about how I was raised, in part it is the part of my body I like the least and I pefer to keep it hid...I tend to wear loose fitting tops and it is covered... I do realize this may seem silly to many of you to struggle with this...
I finally decided that I would lose the t-shirt and run. Do I think I am all that? NO! I was very uncomfortable at first. My body is changing, but it is not as lean as I want it, my belly is not flat...my arms still jiggle some...my body is not where I want it to be, but it is not where it used to be either. I am running half marathons, doing 120 pushups in 12 minutes with other exercises...I am strong...I am a work in progress, but part of that work is accepting myself and my body in the journey...it is not over because I am okay with where I am...I still have goals of where I want to go, but for today, I chose to accept my body, wear a crop top and shorts for a run and by the time I headed home, a friend stop to chat and I didn't even think about what I was wearing or what she was thinking...I felt strong...I had ran 3.5 miles in 32 minutes...I was proud of what my body can do! I am proud of what my body can do and I am going to figure out how to love my body in the process of this journey, to make peace with what is.
I have made good choices with food today, ate clean and drank my water. I am letting myself acknowledge and feel what I feel and sharing those things with a trusted friend..
I am strong and couragous!
So wonderful Trisha!! So proud of you for being brave enough to get rid of that t-shirt!
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